i need help. life is so frustrating. yea i knoe i sound lyke "oh be sry for me im so poor help help" but oh well i hate always being in trouble or being blackmailed or never having anyone i cant really tlk to. i make tons of mistakes and they come back and bite me in the butt. i want skool to start and nevermind. skool will help me get my mind off things and idk. and for now on i am not going to do anything exciting or fun instead i'll be quiet boring emily. no more loud fun emily. i hate being made fun of b/c of being smart. being annoying b/c i lyke to look at guys. or being 'wrong' i just cant stand it so from now on i'll be goody two shoes plain jane type of person. i hate always wanted to be someone im not. i hate having to change my clothes hair makeup and everything before i can go anywhere b/c its not what ppl lyke my mom always says to do this or do tht b/c everyone lykes it well i remember when i was little being told to be myself and not someone im not so here it is i lyke guys with dark hair and makeup and skinny jeans and i lyke music loud and rockish and i lyke lots of dark eyeliner and the colour black and white and i want to be british and i want to drink wht i want and eat wht i want. and i want to beable to lyke any type of music guys anything and want my friends to stand by me and stand by me when i do something stupid. and when things go wrong i want them to be there for me while im therre for them and when i tlk to them tht there nise and at the moment im not sure who to trust and who to tell. so if ur life turns out kinda not the way ya planned im here b/c i hav gone thru everyting and im not sure wht to do now. i want to cry but i need some sleep. i really dont knoe who to trust i need help....